Well Happy New Year to you all. I hope your year has been going well so far.
So I turned 28 on January 4th, although this year number holds no importance to me, I plan to make this year a year to remember because at this current point in my life I am in the best place I can be for my mental health. I have learned to be accepting of myself as an individual, a mother, my mind-set, my body, who I am and what I want to do in life. For the first time in a long time, I feel as though I have control. If 2018 taught me anything, it was to make myself number 1 priority at all times. My attitude these days are on the lines of:
“Well frankly my dear, I couldn’t careless”
“No sir. I am not going down this road with you today so goodbye.”
Honestly, if it’s not benefiting my mental health, my family, my savings or my fitness I couldn’t careless and it’s as simple as that. It has taken me 28 years to get into this kind of headspace and I intend to embrace it and grow within it as much as possible. My heart is still big and I will go above and beyond for the ones I love but I HAVE to come first before anything and anyone else. POINT. BLANK. PERIOD.
I have been very open about last year and that it wasn’t a great one for me, so I figured that this year I will start afresh with no expectations, only a few goals I would like to achieve and a positive mind-set towards everything else.
So here we are at my 28th beginning..
So far this year, I have celebrated my birthday in the lovely city of Barcelona with my girls. That was everything and more. It was also the first time I have been away from my children for more than 24 hours. I forgot how much fun I am and how much fun I can have. I wish the trip was longer but a long weekend was a blessing all the same. I had a great time.
When I returned to the UK, there was no rest for the wicked, it was time for Jahzara to start her inductions at the childminder. She settled in comfortably and had no problem letting them know of her large appetite, which reminds me that a Jahzara update will be on its way shortly.
At the end of that same week, my partner and I took a trip to Amsterdam for the weekend and that was great, well needed and well deserved. Then, after what felt like a few weeks, it was my last week as a full time mother, I would drop both Xion and Jahzara to the childminders, go to the gym, run an errand or two and any spare time was either for me to rest or prepare for my return to work.
So, I am now a working mum… again. One week in and haven’t passed out yet. I won’t comment too much on this because it has only been a week but I will be touching on being a working mum with two babies very soon. At the moment though, it is fine and I think this is because I was so active during my maternity leave. I would wake up, complete a home workout and drop Xion to the childminders by 10.30 latest and in November I had started to put together a routine in order to practise for the real thing so it’s safe to say that this time I was a little bit more prepared.
This year, I am so much more optimistic, the year has hardly begun and there has already been things thrown my way to kill my shine but I have stayed positive and risen above it all. This year I aim to deal with everything in the least stressful way possible, I also aim to take care of myself more and be patient with myself.
I will say in faith and confidence that “THIS IS MY YEAR” not to say bad days won’t come along the way or storms won’t form but regardless of this I aim to rise above all difficulty, as much as I can anyway. If I could get through the last couple of years, last year in particular, then I am sure I can get through what this year has in store for me.
With that being said, I’m ready to experience my 28th year of life.
Until next time...
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